Welcome to the new series: Mommy Monday.
When I did the rebranding of this site, I realized that the reason I was struggling so much with my desire to write was because I was only telling half of my story. The other half is a huge part of me and I was leaving it out, completely!
So here it is.
This is what happens when I’m not designing awesome websites and killer worksheets for you lovelies!
There was this moment this weekend when I looked at all my boys sitting around the couch and I just thought:
“WOW! I am responsible for guiding and directing these crazy little men through life.”
They’re all full of will, and opinions, and adventure, and it just hit me that all of the decisions and choices that I make day-to-day affect them. That in essence I am laying down the stepping stones that will eventually lead them to who they are, and who they will become.
That’s a lot to take in!
It happens all the time with these cute boys. I have these little epiphanies that leave me standing in the middle of the room and just staring at them. They always start off so simple, and then grow into these deep thoughts that I never want to ever forget. But then the days go on, and I get busy. And they slowly slip away into the hustle and bustle of the week, month, year.
So today I wanted to capture just one of those thoughts:
My darling JA, being unexpected and coming in third, joined our crazy little world full of love and chaos, but he has adapted so well, all things considered.
He is easy going. Always full of smiles and giggles, and super sweet with these chunky cheeks that you can’t help but squish and kiss. He’s slept through the night almost since day one (with the occasional “rough night” where he ends up in bed cuddling with mama, but I’m not always sure that’s for him…). His brilliant blue eyes are always full of love and laughter and somehow seem older than the little body they’re in.
I love watching him sit and look out the window. Or quietly lay and play with a toy, completely undisturbed by the commotion going on around him. He was unexpected for sure, but he is a piece of me that I didn’t realize was even missing.
So, I walked into the room this weekend, and saw my three boys sitting together, smiling and playing. I almost had to catch the tears.
Forever I will be their mom. I am the person they will call when they need something, the person who can kiss away the owies.
I am their mom. And nobody can ever change or replace that.
I watched them playing and talking to each other. And even though they are 12, 8, and only 10 months, they have a language that spans the age gaps. I know they will always be there for each other, and that realization made me happier than anything else ever could.
My cute little JA needs me and I need him too. But, he also has these amazing big brothers to be here for him as well. He was a surprise to all of our lives, but look at what he’s brought to it. None of us would be the same without him.
He was definitely needed in this crazy love filled life that we have created!